The other day as I was spending time in prayer, I wrote the following words down in my prayer journal as a way to express the struggle in my heart.

It is a battle that I’ve had before, a battle I currently have, and a struggle that I will continue to have as life goes on. In fact, it’s a struggle that anyone who has a desire to live for God in this world has had, is having, and will have in the future as well.

“Each day my desire is to make righteous choices and to live my life for Jesus in such a way that honors him as Lord. However, I also have within me the desire to be selfish, doing things for myself in the moment that might make me feel good briefly, but does not honor Jesus as Lord or help me to live a righteous life. The struggle is real. The struggle between my flesh and the spirit; the struggle between momentary highs OR life long Godly decisions, between wanting to get angry with life circumstances OR continually seeking to act with grace and mercy no matter the circumstance, and the struggle between making my own choices for my future OR seeking God’s leading for my future. The struggle is real. 

God, give me the strength to put your Spirit that is within me before my own flesh…give me the strength to live my life according to the Spirit rather than my flesh. Help me to seek you in moments when I feel like seeking my own momentary pleasures. Guide me toward the future you have for me, and help me to not settle for the future I think I want for myself. Give me the ability to be gracious and merciful, patient and loving, kind and forgiving in all of life’s circumstances. 

God, the struggle is real…THANK YOU that you are bigger than the struggle, your strength is greater than the most difficult struggle I will ever encounter, and that you are with me through all of the struggles that I will face in this life.”

“In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” – John 16:33

“But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh. For the desires of the flesh are against the Spirit, and the desires of the Spirit are against the flesh, for these are opposed to each other, to keep you from doing the things you want to do…If we live by the Spirit, let us also keep in step with the Spirit.” – Galatians 5:16-17, 25



There are a couple of songs by Curt Anderson that speak volumes to this very thing. The names of those songs are below…I highly recommend checking out his music!

Keep it Beating

When it Hurts

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