Today on my timehop app, I was reminded of a quote that I had posted 4 years ago. The quote says:
“The reason why many are still troubled, still seeking, still making little forward progress is because they haven’t yet come to the end of themselves. We’re still trying to give orders, and interfering with God’s work within us.” – A.W. Tozer
I know that God is always wanting to work on me. I know he is seeking to teach me what I still need to learn, break me of things in my life that are hurting me and keeping me from growing in my faith, and leading me into the future he has planned.
Honestly though, I still want control of things in my life. Yes I want God to work on me, but in the way I’d like him to do so. I have a desire to grow in my faith, I just want to dictate when and how it happens as much as possible. I know there are things in my life that God needs to either teach me or get rid of, but I want to learn at my own pace as well as still cling to certain things because they provide me comfort. It is almost as if I want God to ask my permission or get my ok for when and how he is going to work on my life. Now, I wouldn’t say it that way (cause that would have sounded terrible), but my actions might say it for me.
We’ve all had that same thought process to one degree or another if we are completely honest…it’s part of being human. We like to be in control, we like to be comfortable, we like to keep things the way we want, we only want to have changed what we are ok with changing, and we don’t like to feel pain in any way. We know that change, loss of control, and not being comfortable can hurt, so we seek to avoid that in our lives as much as we can.
God wants to work on us to help us grow and mature in our faith, so that he is able to use us in this life for the things he desires to use us for. Problem is, even though we might want that because we know that is what is best for us, our flesh wants to fight against it because it means we have to give up control and be willing to be uncomfortable.
It’s as if we are getting in the way of God working on our hearts and minds. And then we wonder why we struggle in our faith or don’t grow like we thought we would. (God can work on us whether we allow him to or not since he is God and we are not, but we can also resist his leading and ignore his leading, which he allows to happen at times if our hearts grow hard)
Allowing God to work and not get in the way isn’t an easy task, that is for sure. It requires us to be willing to be broken, humbled, disciplined, and not in control. That is hard for us as humans. However, it is also the best thing for us, because it’s what God is doing in our lives…and he knows what is best for us and has a purpose for our lives.
There’s another quote that my timehop app reminded me of that I had posted a few years ago. It says:
“Just obey God. It doesn’t matter if you understand it or if you don’t want to do it. Just obey Him. Period. He is smarter than we are.” – Clayton King
God wants to work on us, and we need to let him. He will ask us to change things, give things up, be humbled and broken of things, and lose our sense of control…and we need to obey him. We might not understand, and we probably won’t like it at first. But we need to obey, because he is God and thus knows what is best for us, and because to love God means to obey him (1 John 5:3).
Don’t allow yourself to be stuck because you aren’t willing to give up control and allow God to work as he wants to and needs to. Don’t spend time making little forward progress because of your stubbornness. And don’t be ok disobeying him just because you don’t want to feel the pain of change.
Know that God has a purpose for you which is better than anything you have planned for yourself. Allow God to work on you as he needs to, and continually seek to humble yourself before him as he does so. There is so much blessing that comes from obedience and allowing God to work!